Lamo wrote this piece on the Lettrs platform back in august 2016 about who is the blame for suicide.
If I take a knife to the veins of my life of what value is that which will flow from them? Does my worldly worth follow with it fading as does the world I see from my own eyes that close slowly as the darkness that comes envelops it? Selfish they cry but to whom should this accusation be levied to be more true? The soul that has battled now with the weight of too many scars, realising the war cannot be won against this unseen enemy, whose battalions launched a never ending barrage of despair? How are those blind to this battle fought given the right to judge when the smoke clears and the losing side revealed lifeless upon the battlefield? Should they not look upon this horrific scene with shame for not bearing arms to stand and fight the force of darkness alongside this lonely soldier all knew? A life cannot be saved once no more breath does it have for then it is to late for the cavalry to ride forth. For was it not their lack of vigilance responsible for the ultimate tragic loss of this war?
In the court of life, casting the verdict of blame is easy when the defendant is dead!
Recently he has been wondering more about this with the following thought that keeps whirring through his mind.
We agree that God gave us the gift of free will, the ability to make our own choices in life. Does this not then mean that choosing to kill one self is also an act of that free will?
If so then surely it implies that suicide is something that God actually allows through the choice we made? As he must know of all the choices we can make, ending our lives in one of them?
I always believed that committing this immoral act would lead to visiting the place we call purgatory possibly even hell. Now though with this free will though in mind how can it be rejected by God as not wanting to get into heaven quicker.
Would the person whose physical life is so tormented they would consider, yet alone carry out this choice, not want to get to the peace, tranquillity offered by heaven? Surely this is not selfish rather it is putting and end to suffering and misery?
In the Bible there is no specific teachings on suicide, although Lamo would quote the following from Psalms 55:22
“Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you: he will never let the righteous be taken”
It is about the only passage were perhaps there is even a hint that if the burdens of life get you to the point that you would commit suicide, that it not a righteous act? Yet I cannot help but come back to the question of free will. That in giving this to us, God allows for the choice of suicide?
Or is the argument that Suicide is a forced choice by a mind that is not in the right state to make an informed decision correct? A mind that is clouded by such pain, depression, negative feeling that they cannot be considered rational, thus it is no longer a ‘free choice’?
If suicide comes after a period of turmoil, then I would ask how is it created. What I mean is that surely it is a result of continued negative thoughts piling up to create this ultimate state of depression. Is not the person using their ‘free will’ at this point in choosing these black thoughts whilst they are still in a state of cognitive awareness? In this build up positive things of their lives could also be selected by their mind. Future glimpses of hope selected to bring more light to the dark, even to reach out, ask for help. Free will to choose is still available to them before the weight of what they decided to dwell upon becomes the heavy weight of a self perpetuated death.
Therefore is this still not a result of ‘Free Will’ creating the circumstances of the final act. I understand those who argue the point, valid point, in which suicide is a result of a pain an individual can no longer bear to live with but did they not choose that path with dark thoughts?
‘Free Will’ led to the eventual outcome, at any point they had the choice to be positive, reduce the negativity but still carried on down the path to the pivotal moment ‘free will’ was crushed by inevitability.